Midwest Solitude

The Wall of Jericho

Journal / Selfship / Art / Everything idek
As I stood there, unable to move, the end revealed itself to me and I did not indulge in the calm so much as mourn the silence of it all. I am often much more fond of how loud the world was when I was awake. If I could spend a thousand more days, I would pray they were all too warm and too loud and too much because it's such a blessing to see those around, and it's an honor to wake up every morning.

My First Journal Entry <3

April 30, 2025 † Wednesday

It is four in the morning and I can not sleep. I have never made a website in my life and have kept up with a journal all of two weeks before caving in and giving up. This semester has been hard, and I have struggled more with school than I ever have. I think part of that comes with the territory of prioritizing work and neglecting my social life. It's getting better, I recognized a pattern and now I have been working to get out of my slump. I love people, and I really love my friends. I can't wait to see them more.

I think I may end up failing my Stats class this summer. I have never struggled with school like this, I've always been able to save it. I should really be more worried but I'm not. I'm at the point where what happens, happens. I know I worked hard this year, so one bad class isn't going to tank me. Still, sucks I wasted the cash on it, loll.

I spent at least an hour today looking for high quality silicone molds for my dice sets. I want to get back into it, but etsy has been over run by dropshippers who are selling molds with little support or off center detailing. Only high quality ones I have found have been blanks :/

I have a D&D campaign that I'm in, and my best friend will be part of the upcoming one when this one ends. Still, I will be sad to see this one go, I’ll keep playing with the same people but we all have new PCs. Change is hard for me and I love them all so much I am not quite ready to say goodbye. I’m also not ready to say goodbye to my PC to be honest. I really like her, for all her faults she's been almost cathartic to play, I never played a selfish character before. I loved it. Still I also look forward to being more kind come next campaign.

"And in the quiet moments between thoughts, I heard what might have been wings."

Sacred Spaces

Not as godly as it sounds, these are all the characters I selfship with. This page is a WIP that I entend to fill out with info, facts, and art. My goal is to have this completed by 5/30/25

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Memory becomes sacred when it's all we have left.

Original Characters

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Greatest Fear: WIP

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Age: 63
Occupation: WIP
Greatest Fear: WIP
"Come back and think of cool qoute for TEOS, make it sigma"

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A lineup of the things I need to work on.
It is all a process we will get through in due time. No state is ours forever.

Remembered

Study for finals that are upcoming
Add a tab for resources and the likes.
Draft the world sketches for Felix and work on TEOS establishing sketches for worldbuilding week.

Confession Box

Write what you need to release. No one will read it but the silence.

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About the Author

I am a 20 year old queer artist based out of Oklahoma. He/Him & She/Her. I hope to one day be a teacher. I love the color yellow, and I am a sagittarius (which also makes me Equius)

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On Religion

The themes of this blog are heavy handed and harsh at times. I advise that you all be aware of that. This is my way of talking openly about a lot of issues regarding the church and faith as a whole while also still vauling religion and working through my thoughts. More than that, this is a silly website. I try to label all content and make sure I promote nothing harmful in nature. My blog is for everyone, and above all else it is meant to be loving.

On Writing

I love writing, and it's a big part of my life. I write just about everything that comes to mind. I love fan spaces and fan writing, I am anti censorship! I think that it's best to keep an open mind and share resources freely, and as a result I try to not gatekeep. I will eventually be putting in a resource tab that should allow you to see the sources I sample, books and PDFs I have to distribute, ect.

We are all just passing through this landscape, leaving traces too